MY BIG SIS ROCKS MY FACE OFF!!! :D :D :D

Well I really dont know why this has hit me so hard today, but I got grounded saturday night and I have been feeling real worthless ever since then, and for a while I guess. I have been looking to the Lord what seems like a lot lately, but I still feel a gap. I know I needa keep working at it. And me and a good friend have been working thru Psalms lately. And I've been reading it off and on. We have started out pretty slow, but I really hope to improve a lot this week and the next few weeks. But in just the last few hours....over just a matter of maybe five texts.....I made two of my hmmmm idk what to call em ;) friends i guess, but they mean a lot to me, sooooo mad at me. And I didn't even know I did it until I heard there response a few texts later. And I was like I did nothing. Whats wrong? And they explained, and I finally sorta got the picture. But anyway I really really really really really really really really wanna thank my BIG SIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! For EVERYTHING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! She has been the story of my life ever since I met her in bible study lol like FOREVER ago ;) and the time has flown by sooooo fast, I can't even believe I'm 17 now. And in less than a year, I will be an adult. scary huh ;) And I know there is NO DOUBT that God brought her into my life to get me thru the hardest trials I've ever faced, and to keep me alive. PHEW!!!!! Its a miracle I'm still here today. And I thank God for all of it!!!!!!!!!!!!! or else I would never be as strong as I am today!!! But if there was any one on this earth I could dedicate it all to, would be my UBER AMAZZZZZZZZZING SUPER DOOPER PERTY BIG SIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! She's like the MOST AMAZZZZING thing since tv itself ;) But for real!!! Im soooooo humbled at all she does. DUDE!!!!! Shes pregnant, yet still holds down a job, goes to school, hangs with her fam like all the time, has like TONS of friends, plays her flute like ALL the time, and still talks to me of all people. GEEZ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Im in awe!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I could NEVER do that!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm just sooooooooooo stinkin grateful and blessed to have her in my life, no one really knows. It's like the greatest treasure I've ever experienced or gotten to know. It's hard to explain, but im sooooooo stinkin blessed I wish I could HUG her FOREVER AND EVER AND EVER AND EVER AND EVER AND EVER AND EVER AND EVER AND EVER, but for one, im too shy, and two, I would keep from being soooooo AWESOME at all she does!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D :D :D MAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I LOVE MY BIG SIS SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO STINKIN MUCH!!!!!!!!!!! :D :D :D And im sooooooooooo VERY proud of her and all she does!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And I really wanna thank her because I have gotten into soooo many fights the past few days with lots of people and my heart still ACHES very bad that all of those fights haven't been resolved, but with her, as with NO ONE else I have ever met, I know that in the end everything will get worked out cuz that's how much we love each other :D :D :D and I will do my best to read as many Psalms this week as I can!!!!! LOVE YOU TO DEATH BIG SIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And God, thank you for another year to live, another year to love others, another year to glorify and honor you most of all!!! And continue to help me stay strong and not stumble throughout the day and throughout my week.

The suffering that we encounter...

I've noticed lately how often the ones that suffer are the ones without the problem to begin with. Throughout our lives we come in contact with people, open our hearts up to them, share every possible thing with them tears, happiness, laughs and anger...but yet when things go wrong it doesn't seem to phase that other person at all, and the only other person left hurting is us. It's difficult to care so much about someone get your heart broken and that person treat you as though you are nothing on this earth, not even a speck of dust. One minute you are the center of their universe and then the next minute you're gone...vanished...from their world, you haven't done a thing to them yet we are the ones left with the tears and the hurt. Christ gives us compassion to care and to love other people and even though it hurts to the max what people can do to us we must continue to care and love them...and pray for them daily. It's not easy but we must stand firm in our faith against what others do to us...and the more we fight the stronger we will become...